Wednesday, September 17, 2014

"Love your neighbor as yourself. I am God."

(Warning: curse words ahead...)

My son just started high school.
It's a huge school.
None of his middle school friends are there.
It's scary.

And he's walking down the hallway
when an upper class-man gets in his face and says:

"What the hell is that fucking thing in your neck!"

Really?  Are you serious?

And my son ignores him,
continuing on his way,
 completing his task,
then dashes into his counselor's office
where he bursts into tears
 once the door is shut.

My son is a survivor, 
a cancer survivor.
Why does he have to put up with this shit?

As a mom, 
I want to find that jerk of a kid and scream in his face,
making him feel small and worthless and stupid,
maybe even gouge his eyes out.


And then I text Joseph,
someone God brought into our lives,
my son's life.

He's taking Josh to lunch today.

And he texts back:
"Josh is being something in the end, 
that only matters.
An example of Grace, 
and being used by Jesus 
whether he knows it or not.  
He will soon.  
Shitty happens to all 
and it sucks more cause he is young, 
undeserving of it 
and y'all's kiddo.  
But God will make beauty out of ashes.  
We will just keep lifting Josh in love 
and encouragement.  
And soon 
guys like the one who said what he did 
will become a passing fade 
and instead of making him sad, 
it will make him ache for such a lost 
and pathetic human being."

Thank you Joseph.

And then I read:
"Don't seek revenge or carry a grudge against any of your people. 
Love your neighbor as yourself.  
I am God." 

Leviticus 19:18


The Boehme (pronounced Bay-me) family said...

My heart hurts along with yours. you have our prayers, Mommabear. <3

Cheryl Rule said...

Awwww, tough to not be a mommabear!! But, we are called to do it and He promised He will not give more than we can handle and He knows, since He is our maker. Praying for Josh and your family as you walk thru all of this. ♡